Resolved

I don’t know if I’ve blogged incessantly aboutmentioned this, but over the past few years I’ve spent a lot of time working on my stuff.

Learning (painfully, experientially) that change can only come after acceptance of what is. That observation without judgment is the first step toward creating lasting, positive change. (This stands in direct contrast to my past tendency to try to white-knuckle things into existence.)

So I have absorbed pretty deeply the idea that “willpower” is not a concept that has any place in my life.

And yet… I’m feeling the need to put a stake in the ground now. To create intention. To make a ritual out of the start of this new year.

I’m pretty sure I’m doing this with an open and curious spirit. Without putting paralyzing pressure on myself.

(It helps that none of these “goals” is specific enough to be remotely measurable. Well, except for the big one I can’t control.)

Anyway, enough hedging! Here are my “areas of resolution” for 2010.

1. Mindful Biggification

This is Havi’s terminology. Biggifying basically means getting your thing (aka business) out there. But mindful is such an important qualifier. This is not growth for the sake of growth, getting big in and of itself is not the desired end point. The intention is to have the business support you in a sustainable way.

I have a lot of ideas percolating about how to biggify Soul Sleuthing.

The most immediate one being actually putting up a sales page for the dream investigations I have been casually offering to people, here and there. Awesome people who end up having incredible, perspective-altering experiences during the investigations. (By the way, if you want in on the secret preview with introductory pricing make sure you sign up for my newsletter by clicking on the little envelope graphic over there in the sidebar.)

I’m also working on a Dream Investigations handbook. And it just occurred to me the other day that I could lead dream groups.

But dreamwork is only one aspect of Soul Sleuthing. It’s about so much more than that.

It keeps revealing itself to me, and I feel like I just need to do is get out of its way. (Well, that and take deliberate action when called for of course.)

I resolve to be open to where my business wants to go this year, and to act to the best of my abilities when inspiration strikes.

2. Going Raw (-ish)

I don’t remember where I first read about the “raw foods” way of eating, but I’m pretty sure my first thought would have been that people who were doing it must be kind of batty.

(Side-note/caveat/apology: I really don’t like it when people talk about diet, because it can so easily be both annoying and kind of triggery. There is so much judgment flung around on this topic. I only mention it now because it’s part of my own personal intention for the year. And I’ll only ever mention it again if something important comes out of the experiment.)

So eating raw as a concept has intersected my life a few times, but I never saw it as anything I would do. And then things completely shifted last month. I’m not sure where the spark started, but I’m pretty sure it was finding Nathalie, the Raw Foods Witch through Pace and Kyeli.

All of a sudden I found myself inhaling raw food blogs and books, absorbing information in that crazy, infatuated way. That way that makes me think, hmm, there must be something in this for me. Most of what I read just clicks on an instinctual level. I’m particularly interested in the mental and spiritual gains reported by raw foodists.

I doubt I will ever become 100% raw–mainly because I’m just not a 100% anything kind of person. (Also, hello homemade whole-wheat-crust pizza.) But the idea of “raw till dinner” is intriguing to me. Intentionally incorporating more raw fruits and vegetables into my diet seems like a natural.

The weird synchronicity is that much earlier last month (before I delved into any of this research) I felt this pull to sign up for Leonie’s Radiant Goddess course, which starts next week. At the time I thought I did it because I madly adore Leonie’s incredibly genuine spirit and everything that she touches. But now I’m thinking it was more than that, since the course talks a lot about eating raw.

I resolve to explore incorporating more raw foods into my diet, and to see how much of it works for me.

3. Soul Sleuthing

It’s not just my blog, or my business. It’s my practice. My life’s work.

Last year was phenomenal in terms of spiritual and emotional growth. This year I just want to keep going.

Keep writing. Keep observing. Stay present.

Continue practicing compassionate communication with myself and with others.

Keep meditating. Keep doing dance of shiva.

I resolve to continue Soul Sleuthing to the best of my abilities (but also to take a break, zone out and watch bad tv when needed.)

4. Family Making

I don’t think I need to explain this much, and it feels like a jinx to even put it here, since I know more than most that it’s not necessarily an easily attainable goal for everyone. But a list of my plans for the year would be incomplete if I didn’t at least acknowledge one major thing that I’m hoping will happen.

So there.

Does it need a specific resolution? Hmm….

How about I resolve to have fun with it

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